Sorry this is a bit of a depressing subject but I’ve been feeling down and I kinda want to interact with ppl online.

Basically I’m feeling down because the girl I liked (I’m not out to her) is very likely into another girl (she’s bi).

I never dated in my entire life, mostly because I feel like a freak and don’t want to seem like a pervert trying to flirt with a girl. I don’t know why I feel like this, but it’s really taking a toll on me because if even as a relatively attractive guy I couldn’t find anyone, how the hell can I find someone now?

I know T4T exists but there are so few trans women where I live, and the queer community is tiny here. I feel like I’ll always be a second option to cis women(genital preference) and it just feels bad. I’m scared I’ll end up alone. Moreover the HRT is making me crave intimacy so that adds to the pile…

Anyone feels like this too and found how to deal with it?